He's of the colour of the nutmeg. And of the heat of the ginger.... he is pure air and fire; and the dull elements of earth and water never appear in him, but only in patient stillness while his rider mounts him; he is indeed a horse, and all other jades you may call beasts. ~William Shakespeare, Henry V

Thursday, March 02, 2006

I NEED A NAP

I feel so bad, I feel like the worst mommy in the world and Thank God for my mom cause I can't take care of my babies. Yesterday and last night was really rough with Jessie. She was nursing every hour but would only nurse about 10 minutes and then fall asleep and as soon as I laid her down she would wake up and stay awake until she nursed again. She did the same thing during the night. I didn't get any sleep . I was so tired and drained mentally that all I did was cry and then I would get fustrated and mad. I even looked at the clock at about 1:30am and debated about calling my mom but I didn't because highway 2 was closed and no travel was advised and she had to be at work in a few hours anyway. She finally fell asleep this morning at about 8am and has been sleeping since. I hope she stays sleeping for a few hours. Thank God Cassie has been behaving very well this morning, I think she knows her mommy is very temperamental right now. She is watching her cartoons, eating pretzels and drinking juice. I think what I am going to do is call my mom around noon and see if she minds the girls and I coming to her house for a bit so that I can catch a very-much-needed-I'm-going-to-hurt-someone-if-I-don't-get-one nap. I am not going to be able to handle tonight if Jessie does the same thing without a nap.

posted by Janelle @ 9:53 AM  

5 Comments:

  • At March 2, 2006 at 12:47 PM, Blogger Karissa (mommy) said…

    I'm sorry you are having such a hard time. I don't think you should feel like the worst mommy in the world, but I understand why you do, and I think every mom feels like that at some point. I remember when Isabella had colic and I usually took care of her since Doug had to get up to work. I think during those 6 weeks I cried more than I had cried my entire life. I can't imagine how you are doing it all, and I don't blame you at all for getting frustrated. I hope you get some rest and Jessie does better for you tonight. I honestly wish I lived closer because then I could help you out. Good luck with tonight, and I hope you get lots of sleep. :)

     

  • At March 2, 2006 at 4:30 PM, Blogger BoneDaddy said…

    I'm sure deep down you know you're far fromt the worst mommy in the world, but I'll go ahead and say "ditto" to everything Karissa said.
    Being a parent sucks sometimes, but at least you appreciate the good stuff all that much more, right?

     

  • At March 2, 2006 at 9:23 PM, Blogger April said…

    I think you're a great mommy!! You're lucky to have such a supportive family close to you, and I think its great that you feel comfortable asking them for help, there is nothing wrong with asking for help when you're overwhelmed, its a gracious characteristic to have... keep up the good work supermommy!

     

  • At March 2, 2006 at 9:23 PM, Blogger April said…

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  • At March 4, 2006 at 2:36 PM, Blogger Josie, group organizer said…

    The fact that you even feel bad in the first place points to what a good mom you are. Babies are very frustrating to deal with and selfish. Add lack of sleep and you're to the breaking point sometimes. But it will get better and she will make it worth it. Just take a break, get a nap, lean on whoever you can, and have a good cry here and there. I remember when Adele would cry for hours and I would curl up balling on the bathroom floor and then feeling even worse for being a "bad" mom by getting frustrated.I couldn't imagine having 2. Hope you get a good night's sleep!

     

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